As you may have gathered, this past year has been tumultuous. And for my birthday, I’d like to use the idea that things can change so abruptly and so unexpectedly in my favor. I’d like to move nimbly toward independence, toward being a constant in the chaos, and toward maintaining a grace and courage I only recently learned I have.
For my birthday, I am going to eat like a Greek goddess. I am traveling to a spa in Napa with outdoor jacuzzis and unlimited wine. When I lay my head gently back into the water, they will play music from my iPod – underwater. Every hour or so, I’ll get out to taste the fresh cheese and grapes. I am bringing in year 27 with tranquility and cheese and Wyclef.
This year, I want to forgive myself more readily and fully. I want to eat and dance and have great sex. I want to be outside all the time. I want to be deliberate about my relationships and not fall into them. And perhaps most of all, I want to remember that I am responsible for my happiness. If I’m unhappy, I have the obligation to walk away, and if I don’t, shame on me.
To year 26 of my life: good riddance! You brought me to the lowest I’ve ever been, and I feel compelled to say thank you, but bon voyage. Arrivederci. Syonara. PEACE.
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